i'm sorry... i just cant help it.
i'm feeling so scared already.
everyday it's buliding up and up.
and one day i can burst.
i'm sorry.
i love you alot.
i'm studying hard and u know how it drives me mad.
sigh.. and i dunno i'm just so uptight bout everything coz everyday i look out my window and see people playing i feel like joining in too but i'm being held back.
it's so tough and sometimes i feel like giving up.
but then 4 years of work will go down the drain.
i feel so helpless.
and i want u badly.
but then everything's over for u and u dont have any worries.
but i'm always a worrier and i keep thinking and thinking.
even during my bath time when it's supposed to be a spa session for me normally i cant relax a single bit.
my brain is being squeezed tightly.
haiz.
i love you i'll get back to work now.
take care i love you forever