i shall blog earlier today coz i scared later at 8.30 my dad will come in to check.
now i'm very scared. i think maybe next wk then things will be better.
mum says the fone takes about 1 to 3 days to be fixed. and it's under warranty. but still must pay if it's human fault. not technical fault.

tomorrow meetin u at 2.15.

i really love you alot. i'm lovesick. and it's a terminal illness till the day i marry u.

i told my mum that i'll call her when i'm about to finish. so she wont need to come early. like give allowance. call her 15 min before my "lesson" ends.

just now i just slipped the letter into her handbag. the compartment where she put car key. so i suppose she must haf read it by now. i was thinkin at first when i reached home, whether to pass to her personally. then i'm too embarrassed lah. so i just secretly put in her handbag lor. last time i dare to give her letters face to face. dunno y this time i'm so timid.

and i feel that i cant breathe lah. haiz. really cannot wait till next yr.

wednesday is a long day. finish sch at 3.30. not sure if need to stay back for math test till 4. but i'll study after that when i go home.

thursday got eng mock test. 1.30 to about at most 3. i'll leave as soon as i'm done.
friday cant meet. got geog mock test. until maybe 4.
sat is chem course. go home study online. ballet. maybe eat dinner. den go home.
sunday chem course again. then maybe my fren comin over to study. ballet fren.

yeahh. i scared monday my mum dun allow me to go out. but most prob can. tuesday is the one. coz monday go out till late. den tuesday still go out. haiz. i'm damn scared lah. i mean they r so strict and cause me to be so paranoid. it's a sickness. mental one. dunno the medical term.

i planning to tell her sunday night about monday going out. then monday ask her about tuesday. high chance of her disallowing me goin out on tuesday. yeahh thinkin bout this i wanna cry.

anyway even if we meet less one day, it's okay i guess. i'm trying to be positive.
OH MAN. and now i'm beginning to think that i'm meeting u less. as prelims r coming. haiz. i...i dont feel like doing anything already. coz i need u badly here by my side. how i wish u can be my brother till Os r over. so u can live wif me and study wif me.

haizz. well. my heart is with u anyway.

i love you alot.