(pls read this carefully n do not miss out any parts. coz i mean every word below)
YESTERDAY: yesterday was the last day of cny holiday. moi prince came back from malaysia in the morning n i was so happy. we had a very long talk on the fone. n i cant exactly rmb all the details. i only rmb that it was a rough one. like in a raging sea n some spots were calm. so it was on and off.
all i had in mind was to smoothen things n settle our disputes nicely. and i wanted to make sure that moi prince is feelin alright n better. coz everytime we quarrel, i dont feel good at all n i can just cry anytime. even as i'm writing this now, i dunno why but tears r welling up. i did not mean to bug u with many fone calls, but that time it was so precarious and i just wanted to make sure everything was alright n fine. i was worried about u n at the same time i wanted to hug u and tell u that i love u. but i could only do so through a phone.
u know it's only when such situations that i would call u when u're out. otherwise, i wouldnt disturb u so much. it's only when it's urgent or something important.
so i hope u understand the reason behind everything.
after that we met n we sorted things out. i felt numbed at first and did not know what was going on. but then after awhile, after talking n sayin our inner thoughts, we felt much better n everything was fine again.
though our date was cut short coz u forgot that u had hw. n we had to go home early so u can check ur hw. next time pls plan properly ok. so that everything wont be so rush n last min.
i felt kinda sad that we had to end earlier than planned but like u said, we have a lifetime together so it's alright. our hearts will always be together.
TODAY: sch started again. and i just melted into the holiday mood. i couldnt get myself back to schooling mood. i did not feel like goin to sch. n results r out next wk. i cant wait to get my results n do my best to transfer schs.
today in sch, we started out fine. but there's this time when i tot i sent the wrong message, so i called u and asked if u received it. u said u would send it back. and i was there waiting for ur reply n my lessons (math test) was startin soon. so of course i would feel scared n not knowing wat to expect. i was worried that i sent it to my mum n there i was waiting n wondering when u would inform me. that's y i called again. only to find out that u were eating. by the time u finish eatin n send me that message, my test would have started. that's y it's urgent. that's y i had to make the call. because u kept me waiting for so long. i'm not impatient, i waited for u until 3 min b4 my lesson. i went to eat bread. but u shd know that i'm worried bout this kinda thing. so i expect u to inform me asap.
and i wont like for nothing call u when u're out. it's only because i waited for long then i would call to find out wat happened. because u told me b4 hand that u would sms me to tell me ur plans. so i was expecting to hear from u. and when u did not sms me, i waited n i even smsed u when it's ur turn to reply. then i waited summore. b4 calling.
just to say it all, i give u my word that i wouldnt call u when u're outside to chit chat. i only call u when there's an urgent purpose ok. so that's what i promise u.
and i feel that on ur side, maybe u can spare a thought for me more, n do things that u said u'll do.
u shd also think of the factors ( like the wrong sms incident today). i felt worried n u shd inform me asap since my test was startin soon.
so i hope u understand.
and also since we're in different schs, it's natural that i miss u even more. so i'll be lookin out for ur sms n be very anticipating. so maybe u can drop me a msg more, instead of keepin me waiting for so long. i know u have ur lessons too but i'm referrin to ur breaktime n in between lessons. and of course, i dont expect u to sms me so often coz u have ur own stuff to do too.
but if i sms u, n it's ur turn to reply, reply when u can ok. n sometimes during ur break, u can dont reply me for more than 2 hrs. and i sent u more than 1 sms. so how do u think i feel?
i'm not unreasonable dear. only when i feel that there can be improvement made, then i'll bring out the issue.
to tell u the truth, i'm disappointed. but it's not all ur fault, coz everyone plays a part.
i'm just lettin u know my thoughts so we can understand the other party better n make our relationship better.
i just hope that u can spare a thought for my feelings n think of me more. coz sometimes i get really upset when i wait so long. u know that u can make my day. so please try to sms me whenever u can ok. n dont make me wait too long if not i'll be miserable.
we can give and take. girls r more sensitive that's y.
and for my part, i will try to relax more n take things easy. it's just that sometimes i miss u so much i dunno what to do, and i'm so needy of u.
i hope u would think about what i've said k. but no matter what, even if we have a really really terrible quarrel or fight, i still love you deep down inside. n i wont ever leave u.
this is all because i love you with all my heart.
and i really wanna marry u, my dearest prince.
so rmb to smile ok. n i'm always here for u.
